When it comes to love and matters of the heart
better come prepared with a bulletproof vest
Because one of these days, someone might just come
and try to pump that warm fuzzy feeling back into your chest
And Cupid's arrow knows no mercy for strangers
and fools like me, you see
The kind that dreams in the day and at night
Of every little maybe, every single possibility
Well i used to be the girl who wore her heart on her sleeve
And would give it up all in the name of love
But reality came and pulled the trigger,
And i told myself i'd had just about enough

Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)
Boy: yeah, she is. (But you’re still the most beautiful girl I know)
Girl: I heard she’s funny & amazing. (All the stuff I wasn’t)
Boy: She sure is. (But she’s nothing compared to you)
Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now (Like how you knew just about everything about me)
Boy: Only the stuff that count (I can’t even remember the stuff she tells me when I think of you)
Girl: Well, I hope you guys last. (Because we never did)
Boy: I hope we do too. (Whatever happened to me & you?)
Girl: Well I got to go. (Before I start to cry)
Boy: Yeah me too. (I hope you don’t cry)
Girl: Bye. (I still love you)
Boy: Later. (I never stopped)

...When people say i don't understand, because i do.
...When people think they're the only ones who hurt, because i hurt too.

Some people need to stop feeling like the whole world revolves around them, that nobody understands.  And YOU, my "friend," really need to start giving your friends (example: me) a little more credit.

Past experiences and censored faces
Blur against my worn shoelaces
A cry, a suppressed smile
Shaken and awake, yet all the while

A new chapter begins but that doesn't mean the last one was forgotten.
I've got my best shoes and most winning smile but that doesn't mean i always wear them.
You want it all, gotta, gotta have it all but trying is just too difficult
And just like a bejeweled pair of worn out acid washed jeans,
or a half smoked cigarette in an ivory case,
you can't disguise a beat up soul, something plastic can't replace.

She's not who you think she is
In spite of every word, of every kiss
You don't know her
You don't know anything about her
And she threw away your mix cassette
And you've got no right to be upset
She's jumping, grinding, covered in sweat
Her forehead drip drip, down to her chest

She's your teenage hormone dream
Like she walked straight out of a movie scene
But you don't know her
You know nothing about her
She's a soldier and a general
Strategize you to get physical
And in, in, into her heart
Then in, in, into her pants
She saved you the last dance
Made you think you had a chance
( She's the queen of hearts )

Little Boy, she don't love you, you know
She's like a walking hurricane, ready to get set and go
Little Boy, she don't love you it's true
She's the treason of the season
The reason, what can you do
She's got them lined down the block
You see she works around the clock
And we all know you think she's hot
And you think she likes you a lot

( But, really )

So hey, wipe off that sad sweet smile
We both know we can't stay awhile
Don't you know we'll be okay
Save those liquid travesties for another day

Now we're holding on
To knowing we'll be just fine

Heart pumping traffic stopping palms sweating
little oh so little brittle little first love
Knees shaking tummy aching i was all yours for the taking
What had been what could be first one

No mistakes, no regrets
You're someone i'll never forget

So hey, don't feel blue about us, about this
You've got so much more to do, baby you're hard to miss
So what if we got hurt So what if we got burned
If it wasn't for you, i don't think i would've learned

Now we're holding on
To knowing we'll be just fine

And sometimes, i'll stop and think of you
And i will smile, knowing you're doing alright

The city looks so nice from here
Pity i can't see it clearly
While you're standing there
It disappears
It disappears

I MISS YOU

I just really miss Bora, okay? :(
I can't seem to get over it, it's all i freaking think about.

But please don't make promises you can't keep.
Because you end up disappointing people.

Sometimes, I wanna shake you, and knock some reason through. But it's not reason that's lacking; it's not logic that i need from you.
I want you to feel
I want you to feel
I want you to feel

There's no use trying to save someone who doesn't want to be saved.

Watch the neon traffic lights
Disappear as we drive by
Can't you feel there's so much more to life
Than the hours we spend everyday
Wasting all our youth away

When you've got something to say
Words will be just fine
and words, words, move forward
To make our hearts beat in time
When you've got something you feel
And the words come out all wrong
Express it amplify it string it out through song
But when all you really need is to be free
To be whoever you want to be
Just so you know, off the record
You'll always have me.

I am SO excited for the MAC party :>

that i SO deserve better than this :)
I'm so sick of being your Plan B.

Who am i kidding.

I don't know
I don't know
I don't know


I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know


I still don't know

"... I'm reaching out and she's right there and right at that moment the amps amplify and the music takes on such a pulse that it becomes my heartbeat and her heartbeat and I know it and she knows it and this is the point where we could break apart and that would be it, totally it. But i look into her eyes and she looks into my eyes and we recognize it - the excitement of being here, the excitement of being now. And maybe i'm realising what a part of it she is and maybe she's realizing what a part of it I am, because suddenly we're not crahing as much as we're combining. The chords swirling around us are becoming a tornado, tightening and tightening and tightening, and we are at the center of each other. My wrist touches hers right at the point of our pulses, and i swear i can feel it. That thrum. We are moving to the music and at the same time we are at a stillness. I am not losing myself in the barrage. I am finding her. And she is- yes, she is finding me."